Night time watch

Listening for that noise that means that the baby is awake. Its an interesting mental process. Exhausting emotionally. Considering what each "egh", "neh" and "wah" and whether or not it means that she is asleep or not. If she needs to be changed, fed or needs another blanket. Praying for her safety, her salvation, her life. It's like star hunting, at night, with my red flashlight on watching her twitch and breathe. Looking for signs of life.